Is there a 'reckless abandonment' about me?

This really challenged me this week:
"The spiritual saint never believes circumstances to be haphazard, or thinks of his life as secular and sacred; he sees everything he is dumped down in as the means of securing the knowledge of Jesus Christ. There is a reckless abandonment about him." - Oswald Chambers
God I need you. I want to be the kind of man who seeks you with reckless abandon!